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Well I have done a lot of things lately that have been very good for me, my confidence and my life generally. These are all things that are related to my very laid back style of self development (it sounds good when I put it like that!). I'll try to put them in chronological order but I may not succeed!

- I joined a martial arts school and started going to classes. I've been doing this for a few months now. It's expensive, but really really worth it. For awhile I was very nervous every time I w… Continue

WOW. I mean WOW. I've just had a massive realisation and it's pretty awesome so I'd like to share it with you. Basically for quite awhile now I think I've been trying to do the right thing all the time and make the right decisions every waking moment and like worried about getting stuff wrong.. And what I've now realised is that it's fine if I make mistakes because everybody does and basically my life will be okay if I do what feels right and try to make it better if I get something wrong :) Wor… Continue

Last night I laid awake all night waiting for a text from my girlfriend. This is after spending a very pleasant weekend with her, which did have its downsides but they weren't the fault of me or her so they did not worry me, and feeling closer to her than I have felt to anyone for a long time. Maybe closer than I have ever felt to anyone.

Although I won't go into details I will say the text was something I invested a lot of emotion in. It was important to me to know how she felt and what she wa… Continue

Just going to write down some stuff that's been going through my mind recently because I find it can clarify my thoughts. I'll attempt to make it make sense to other people but i'm not promising anything so read on if you dare :P

Pleasure
A lot of self-development has to do with pleasure. Limiting it, delaying it, long-term happiness over instant gratification (quick and easy pleasure). Some of the things we associate with pleasure are things that, I think, don't actually give us… Continue